Monday July 27th 2020
3:47 PM
Ughhhh. I don’t know why I feel like this — strange, not well — right now. Um. God. How long has it been since the last entry. Why am I doing this. Why am I why haven’t I. I think it’s like the Artists Space internship with like the 18/hr which is good but also like more internships? I was trying to look at [] too bc I had the Hill Art thing this morning — went well, really well, so why?! — because she told me she’s starting PhD couldn’t find but saw that [] was Magna cum laude, highest honors and it was like ughhh. Fuck. A year out. it’s better but I’m still looking out at it thinking wow what am I doing. Transcribing by the way. Watching the office in the meantime. Ugh. You know what at least I wrote this entry. God I’m so sad. No not so sad. But definitely melancholy. It was also only after. Like was doin a lot of rights stuff. Then went down to []. Now melancholy. Worked through lunch break? Maybe that’s why? Not completely but mostly. But. God. Don’t know what she’s up to really. []. [] also but not highest… whatever. Still though. Also [] said she’s coming to my lecture Thursday. Which didn’t bother me honestly not that someone I know is going to be there but it’s like it’s out there being publicized agh god. Fine. Keep transcribing. Moving. Ugh.